serious vanity

It's a hard mistake... When we collide - we break...

 

here is me b4, and here is me now...

this is me... when i still have a hair.. at mejo tinopak ako kaya eto ang kinalabasan...

 

actually 1 week na yata akong semi kalbo... mainit

kse isa pa tinopak lang... ok naman, sanay na sila.. really :)

pero mas trip ko talaga 2ng buhok ko dati.. kaya lang mainipin ako eh..

 

posted by: brattyblue at 03/28/05 13:22 | link | comments |

 

 

Collide
Howie Day
(Stop All The World Now)

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your
mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

posted by: brattyblue at 03/27/05 16:30 | link | comments |

"All it takes is your will and determination to achieve your goal.

Focus!

Don't let yourself backslide, don't throw yourself to the edge.

Even if it's too high to reach.

Focus!"

 

Ang sabi sa akin ni Kuya Chris, "Patience is the key". Sa hinde ko alam na kadahilanan at hinde ko na mabilang na pagkakataon, hanggang ngayon, marami pa rin ako ng "pasensya" na yan, para sa kanya.

Hinde ko alam, Hinde ko masabi. Pero ramdam ko.. s'ya na... Mahal ko talaga s'ya..

Hinde ko na nga mabilang ang mga taong nagsabi sa akin na ang laki ng ipinagbago ko.

I was with my Buddy Dyanis last Sunday with Jhe(My ex, though still a friend of mine) and Len(Jhe's ex). We watched Hitch and had a bottle of beer at Our's Malate.

Nung nasa taxi na kame pauwi, hinde ko na matandaan kung paano na open yung topic pero bigla na lang sinabi ni Jhe na "Nung kami pa nya'n ni Blue, never naman nyang inalam kung nasaan ako."

Gusto ko sanang itanong sa kanya kung ganon ba talaga ako kagago dati pero i just kept my mouth shut.

Ngayon, sa "Friends with (Fucking) Benefits Situation" na kinalalagyan ko, ako ang dehado, ako ang talo. Mahal ko kase yung babae.

Bullshit kase, baket pumayag pa ako, bakit matino pa rin ako sa kanya eh hinde naman kami "on" officially?

S'ya, pwede nyang gawin lahat ng gusto nya, hinde ako makikialam. Pero ako, pwede ko ngang gawin yung gusto ko kaso magseselos sya, mapapraning sya.

Badtrip talaga, I'm making a fool out of myself.

I wish I can do all the things that will make my heart go numb. I wish there's no more tears fall from my eyes.

I wish there's no more hurt and pain that maim my soul, my being.

I wish I could disappear instantly and never come back into this hurtful situation again.

Sana hindi ko na lang pinatunayan yung sarili ko sa'yo. You have always misjudge me, you have always took things forgranted. You never took the chance to look at me, to check on my feelings.

Sana from the very start hinde na lang kita sineryoso, ok naman ako nun eh. Ngayon, I can not get back into my old self again. Ako yung naiwanang talo.

All i ever want to do is to make you see that i've fallen head over heels in love with you.

All this time, all of this wasted moments, you're still questioning my intentions, my motives, my sincerity, my emotions.

YOU WERE TOO SCARED TOO FALL, SASALUHIN NAMAN KITA. TAKOT KANG LUMANGOY PERO SINAGIP KITA. NGAYON, ANG NANGYARI, AKO YUNG NALUNOD.

AKO YUNG NALUNOD AT HINDI MAKAAHON.

putang-ina...

posted by: brattyblue at 03/26/05 12:45 | link | comments |

holy hell week

it's holy week.

Vacation week.

it's a hell week for me.

why?

it's too fucking damn hot.. have'nt you notice yet?

plus.. the fact that all the people around me is procrastinating makes me want to kill all of them in whatever kind of way. (as if i can do that!)

last year, i was really happy spending it because Antonette was there with me.

But now, i don't have any idea if she'll be there with me, celebrating easter. (kahit saglit nga, wala akong idea kung magkakasama kami.)

hanep na buhay 'to..

I maybe should clean up all the mess in my room...

Wish me all the luck in the world.

And one more thing that pisses me.. I aint gonna go to summer class, which is i really have to take.

God help me.

Ui.. Kung sino man ang magbabakasyon d'yan.. pasalubong lang.. Wag kakalimutan.

:)

posted by: brattyblue at 03/23/05 14:36 | link | comments |

For all of you people...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't?

or-

Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...

if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had
with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.

You can't tell your heart what to do.

It does it on its own....

when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid...

afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
(even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you d o if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live, but people die.

And I want to tell all of you that you are a friend.

If I die tomorrow (God Forbid), all of you would be in my heart.

Would I be in yours?


If you care about me as much as I care about all of  you, tell me now.

We might be best friends over a year.

pretty good friends the next year.

don't talk that often the next.

and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say,

even if I never talk to all of you again in my life,

you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you.

Respect all of  you.

and truly cherish all of you.


let all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are...

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them.

and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this post and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.

THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!!!

posted by: brattyblue at 03/22/05 19:33 | link | comments |