serious vanity

Thursday, September 29

Motorcycle Drive by

Summer time and the wind is blowing, Outside in lower Chelsea.
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
it crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
That's when I knew, That i could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still I'm the one whose stupid,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
Cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind, And you smile,
And say the world doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you, You're so serene.
Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, Guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in,
I would like to build something, But You never see it happen,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
And there's this burning, There is this burning.
Where's the soul. I wanna know, New York City is evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this is the last time, We'll be friends again.
And I'll get over you, you'll wonder, Who I am.
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out, On the water Alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise, The sun goes down in my eyes, See this rolling wave, Darkly coming to take me, Home,
And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.

*******

Sometimes in life, there's somethin missing, but you just shrug off the feeling. There will always be times that you'll feel lonely but you'll realize that it's just normal since you're just human. You will come to realize that everything on earth happens for a reason, may it be too depressing or upsetting.

It's the way life mold you're personality, shape you into one fine being.

I finally came into my senses. Yes there are times that i still think of those sad moments but, because of what had happen, it made me a stronger person. Made me see myself far from what i expected me to be in the beginning.

I was way over what i started with.

A one fine being, created by His own care.

As the saying goes.... "life is what you make of it..." "what can't kill you, makes you stronger..."

Right now, i'm pretty challenge with the work i am having. It made me realize that it doesnt take seeing or being with someone to be happy at all. It's just the way you accept things, the way you do happy things.

It doesn't mean that you need to forget that someone for you to totally admit to yourself that you moved on, it's the way you accept that you love that person even if that person won't be with you anymore.

It's just the way things are...

Really, it's just the way you accept things as they are... :)

posted by: brattyblue at 09/29/05 22:23 | link | comments (3) |

Tuesday, September 13

inlababo!

Waaahhhhh!!!!!

Crush ko supervisor ko. Sup ko, Coach ko. Waaaahhhh!!!!!!!!

I'll give her 3 chocs tom, tignan ko kung mapapansin. :)

'Steeg! :)

posted by: brattyblue at 09/13/05 20:13 | link | comments (4) |

Thursday, September 08

sorry guys...

i let you down again. imma give up blogging na. maybe friendster na rin. suko na ko for the meantime. establish na lang muna my work. nothing else i could do. yoko na ng puro pain dito sa blog.

malamang sa sawa na kayo. ako din sawa na din. just like what you told me honey. exactly.

i'll exist.

posted by: brattyblue at 09/08/05 11:49 | link | comments (1) |

Wednesday, September 07

The lights are out in the city tonight , So close your eyes

Gaze up at the heavens and see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight , I'd wish upon a satellite ; to bring me back to you

Bring me back to you

We spend our whole life searching for , all the things we think we want

And never really knowing what we have

So many paths that we can take

To bring us to out destina--y

Gaze up at the heavens and see if you can point me out

Be careful what you wish for; These stars are fading out

Be careful what you wish for These stars are fading...

The Ataris - The Night That The Lights Went Out In NYC Lyrics

posted by: brattyblue at 09/07/05 12:24 | link | comments |

Monday, September 05

ginulo mo ko. sana ganun na lang kadali.

kala mo ba ganon kadali? hinde. hinde madaling sabihing mahal kita. hinde madaling pigilan kung ano man ang nararamdaman ko sa'yo.

hinde madaling masira ang ulo ko, dahil sa nararamdaman ko.

mali na, sobrang mali na. walang rason para mahalin ka.

tulad mong babaeng kayang kaya ko lang paikutin sa kamay ko.

pero bullshit, simula pa lang, iba ka na.

lahat ng hiniling mo binigay ko.

kasalanan ko lang, tinupad ko. wag kang iwan at mahalin ka ng pamhabangbuhay.

babae ka lang, lalo na sa deskripsyon mo sa sarili mo. hinde ko matanggap.

tapos na nga ang obligasyon ko sayo, pero ikaw, ikaw ang unang nagparamdam, ako, itong aso na nagpupumilit makadikit sayo ng konte.

asong tanga.

napatunayan ko ng mali ang hinala mo saken. isang taon, ikaw pa rin. o ikaw ang nauna? ikaw ang me iba na?

labo 'di ba?

labo talaga. anong ginawa ko para ideserve ko 'to? anong nagawa ko para itreat mo ko ng ganito?

let's forget we've known each other.

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